...“Beauty again…is that all that men think of? Beauty and sex, I mean.” The words slipped out before she could stop them, propelled by the doubts that had plagued her since her early teens. Those doubts colored her tone with fifteen years of resentment. She wasn’t beautiful so she should be easy if she sought popularity. What a female lacked in appearance, she must perforce make up for in ready sex.
“No. Not all of us, at least. I am not greatly concerned with large breasts, a certain color of skin and eyes, the style and amount of hair. I will confess I enjoy a lively romp as much as anyone—or I did, when I was a living man—but there are other qualities to seek in a woman besides her willingness to couple and the shape of her body. She must learn to enjoy the mating as much as her man, and it’s the man’s duty to teach and show her these ways.”
“Ahhhrrrgggg.” The strangled sound emerged from Arabella’s throat. No man she’d ever known had accepted that premise. “You mean, uh—er—that you’d take the time to…” She’d never thought herself a prude, but when it came to speaking out so bluntly, the words lodged in her throat and refused to be said. “I never— It was not fun; mostly sex was not even pleasant.”
“Ah, that is very sad. But that illustrates the problem that sex without love, without caring is hollow and lacking. There is just one thing to do, then. Start all over from the very first and let you find how very pleasurable the play between a man and a woman can be. I have my work cut out for me, do I not?”
He chuckled, and at the same instant, reached out and touched her. The combination sent a burst of heat flaring through her body. The touch was casual and light—just a hand on her bare arm, a fingertip brushing her side with the lightest of feather touches. Yet a match pressed to her skin could not have ignited more intense sensation. Involuntarily, she again shivered.
Once more, as on earlier nights, the mattress dipped slightly. This time she felt warmth at her side. Nothing as tangible as a body there, but a spot of higher temperature than that of the room. His hand stroked down her arm, paused at her wrist and then moved back up to her shoulder. “Teaching you and learning you, all at the same time. Intriguing thought. Yes, this will do much for us both.”
His hand shifted now to rest on her upper chest, well above the swell of her breasts, but the long fingers spread and reached, thumb in the hollow at the base of her throat and little finger extended into the valley between her breasts. For one breath and another, he did not move. The touch remained light, no weight, but only the sensation of skin to skin, awakening a delicious tingle of desire.
He skimmed a quick stroke down to her waist, slipping between her breasts without touching either of them, tracing a feathery circle around her navel and then gliding back to her throat. He rested four fingertips on the pulse thrumming there at the side of her neck, as if counting the beats, which seemed to come at a pace much quicker than normal.
“Touching, simply touching is wonderful, expressive and stirring, no?”
She sighed out a breath. “Yes… Yes, it is.”
“Should I stop yet?”
“S-s-s-stop? Why ever should you stop?”
“Only if it is not pleasant, if you are not feeling pleasure.”
She had a wild desire to laugh, but she didn’t. She had never felt such pleasure and she knew he had barely begun. She didn’t move because she could not. As if hypnotized, she lay still, bare, exposed and at his mercy. Every inch of skin tingled in anticipation. Where, when, how would the next touch come?
Her eyes were wide open. She could see the familiar stars through the skylight overhead and the lighter area where the moon shone against the curtains on the southeast-facing window. She could not see him, though, not even the patch of denser darkness she thought she saw before. Yet he was there, beside her, sitting on her bed. She knew, but could not say how she knew. The only thing she really felt was one single hand…
Again, a lingering, sinuous stroke from her throat down to her navel. This time, his fingertips brushed along the inner side of her right breast, an impact hardly strong enough to be termed a touch. He rested his hand for a moment, flat on her belly, below the arch of her ribs. Surely he felt the tremor that stirred her flesh, the swift rise and fall of her breath, the skipping stutter of her heartbeat. With light pressure on the heel of his hand, he moved it in a slow clockwise circle, shaping the slight roundness of her abdomen.
“Nice round womanly shape,” he said. “Only a girl, too young for a man’s desire, should be flat-bellied and angular.”
“I’ve always thought I was too voluptuous, too Rubenesque.” Arabella whispered, speaking through stiff lips, as if the words had been dragged from her. “The boys always liked the slim girls, big boobs maybe, but the rest thin. Like the models in those magazines…”
He gave a half-snorting laugh. “Boys, not men. Perhaps that’s the whole problem—you’ve known only boys, when you should have sought real men...”